Times Are Hard For Dreamers

To find God, to draw closer to the source  of existence; to know oneself, one's origin, one's place. To understand the unanswerable                           the unknown                                      "life". To conclude the unceasing quest for purpose. To exist. To know. To know.      

people say I think too much. I don't feel that way at all. I think I think too little, not enough, not at all. this life is embryonic and I am but a thought. I am nothing. I am nothing. I am tired.

my mind can't shut off. I remember telling someone once, "You can't ever turn your mind off. Even when you're bored, you're always thinking of something." I think of you; I hate myself, I try to teach myself how to love those who hurt me and it's easy. But to love myself, that is the endless quest I am given in life. it's heavy. so very, very heavy. -- ↯